In Which the Ringmaster Recounts Recent Rambles

Pressure. My life is work sealed in a pressure cooker.

As the guy responsible for re-building 3 distance ed classrooms for ETSU, it's my responsibility to keep my crew on track to get a mountain of construction and wiring jobs done by the first week of August. At the same time, I have to put up with my co-worker's constant micromanagement and incessent adding of work requests that pull me away from the major job. The boss gives little, if any support and the university has screwed up the money accounts so badly that we have $3000 of money that can't be spent because the system has changed to a format that incompatible with it's own account structure. Purchasing actually has no idea what they're doing.

The guys that work for me are simply incredible. Those guys work their asses off and care that they are doing the job RIGHT. They put up with my nearly venting as the department jerks me around on a daily basis and my forgetfulness amid the storm of priorities and dozens of different projects that I'm constantly pushing them to finish as quickly as possible.

The stress makes me sick, the frustration of others belittling everything I do makes me sick, the constant threat of having everything in place except the actually equipment that will run the sites makes me sick, the fact that I'm going to have to work overtime in August and I don't get paid anymore for it makes me sick. In short, I'm in a very poor state of mind at the moment.

I'm $1700 in debt that I haven't paid on in a long time, and I don't have enough money to buy food this month, nevermind the $300 insurance charge or $120 I'll have to pay in server charges if I don't get the old site shut down and moved to the new server.

Once I cancel the old service, I'll be saving $50 a month! Then, thanks to my new work cell phone, I'll save another $50 a month once I lower the minutes on my personal plan.

The site is my sanity right now. The one bright spot of creativity that I can actually focus on right now. I'm working hard to improve it to make people want to share the thoughts and art of my friends. I know without a doubt that there are people who could enjoy this site, I just need to crack the code and figure out how to attract them.

I apologize to the one or two people who read this, I try not to post negative stuff or bitch about my personal life, but sometimes even I need to vent.

Thanks! More fun stuff soon!